To wait or not to wait?

I had an exceptionally domestic day today and it made me thankful for the activities that give me joy as the time passes by bringing us closer to being a family.  

I made some yummy baguettes and put them on our new, beautiful bread board.  (Thanks Jim and Will!)

 

SuJeong and I made this great quilt square (and subsequently another).  I think I'll make it a friend and turn them into pillows.  Not too bad for a first attempt.  (Thanks for the new sewing machine, mom.)

 

I was also able to get started on the Scrapbook portion of our Quilt Project with the first note that arrived from our good friend Liz from Trinity.

We've said from the beginning of this process that we would not get ourselves all caught up in waiting so that all we can focus on is WAITING.  Focusing on waiting can be dangerous because it takes our eyes off of WHAT and WHOM we are waiting for.  These little jobs like organizing the rooms of our house (which is how we spent our morning), baking or doing crafty projects are ways to keep our hands busy while our hearts keep praying that God will bring about the miracle of adoption for our family.  While we're not waiting, we are welcoming 2009 and trusting that this will be the year that we become a family of 4!

Brazilian Consulate

To make all our documents presentable to the Brazilian courts, they had to be legalized by the Brazilian Consulate in NYC.  Documents had to be dropped off by 1pm, so after having them apostilled in Hartford, I sped south again on the highway, picked up James on a street corner where he was waiting for me, and headed down to New York.  We arrived in the city with enough time, parked the car, and scampered a few blocks to the consulate.  Security officers in the building gave us these very flattering ID cards and sent us up to the consular offices.

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We signed in and received a number (I think "L" stands for Legalization) and sat down for about 32 seconds before we were called up to the window.  We handed over the documents, took our receipt and agreed to return the next day between 3 and 4 pm to pick up the documents.  

THE NEXT DAY... 12/21/08

We repeated the trip, but this time by train.  Kim had a day off school because of snow, and the rails seemed safer than the roads.  The consulate is only a few blocks from Grand Central Station, so we schlepped (not scampered) through the slushy, sloppy mess, hurrying to arrive on time.  We got our flattering ID cards...

...signed in and got a number and didn't even have time to sit down in a chair before our number was called.  Hand over receipt, watch clerk thumb through a tall stack of papers, pull ours out, attempt to thank clerk in Portuguese, and head back out the door.  Done.  

I really think this was the most smooth and efficient part of the whole adoption process so far.  

Delivery

Well, two of my good friends delivered their babies this week, and we did some delivering of our own.  

Here's James holding all three copies of our dossier on the train to NYC on December 19.  Notice the blizzard outside his window.  While beautiful snow was falling in CT, slush and slop were puddling up the streets of New York.  We covered and guarded our papers to keep our little family safe from the storm.

Here I am at Kinko's after photocopying the documents we picked up from the consulate.  We tucked them all into an overnight delivery box and mailed them off to AWAA.  The sweet clerk at Kinko's noticed the address on the box and wished us Happy Holidays and, "good luck with your adoption!"  

Now we're down to the last few hurdles before we can be a family!  The hurdles that remain are:

1. AWAA reviews our dossier
2. The translator translates everything to Portuguese (should take a week)
3. The dossier goes to Brazil and we wait for Brazil to approve as prospective adoptive parents
4. The Brazilian court matches us with waiting children
5. We travel, co-habitate with our kids for 30 days in the state where they live, and finalize the adoption in a Brazilian court
6. Then we come home and start figuring out what it looks like to be a family of 4!

I800A Approval

Good afternoon Kim, 

Congratulations, again!  Attached you will find the I800A scanned copy of the approval and the next step instructions that are sent with the approval in the mail.  The approval notice will be sent today in the mail and a copy also sent to your Adoption service provider.

Thanks for your patience and Happy Holidays!

________________________________________

Tia

Sweet Approver!

Kim,

I apologize for the delay today, our systems went down!  I'm approving you case as we speak!  Congratulations!!!!   I will hurry to scan your approval!

Take care and once again Congratulations and Happy Holidays!

___________________________________________

Tia

Click and Refresh

I spoke this morning with Tia, the adjudication officer assigned to our case at USCIS.  She has received the Homestudy Addendum and is reviewing it right now.  She has said that she will be finished approving our case before the end of the day! (she actually said "in an hour" 11:30.)  She even suggested scanning the approval notice and emailing it to me as soon as she's done.  (Can I get an "AMEN"?)

 

Turns out someone in my school is a notary, and the Secretary of the State's in Hartford office has agreed to take me as a walk-in since I only have one document to apostille.  The Consulate General of Brazil in New York extended their document drop-off hours, giving me enough time to get there tomorrow right after I'm done in Hartford. 

 

Praise God for showing us how Good He is! 

 

(I'm trying not to hold my breath, or count my chickens, or get myself too hyped up.  You know, just in case.  Problem is:  I'm ALL HYPED UP!)

Quilt of 1000 Prayers--UPDATED AGAIN

**NEW DEADLINE**

My plan is to do most of the work of putting the quilt together during my February Break from school (Feb 14-21).  All fabric squares need to be in before then so they can be included in the quilts!

Here is an exciting way for all our friends and family to get involved in a special project for our children!  We're making a Quilt of 1000 Prayers, based on the traditional Chinese Quilt of 100 Good Wishes: "Bai Jia Bei," but we can't do it alone!  We need your help to make it happen.  

Instructions:

1. Please send us 2 matching squares of 100% cotton fabric (new or recycled) 5" each.  (If you need our mailing address, please email me or leave a comment at the bottom of this post.)
   
2. The squares need not be pre-washed, and may be embellished if you desire to do so.  Please keep in mind, if you decide to embroider or decorate, that the quilt will need to remain washable, and that we may crop the 5" squares down to about 4", so keep your decorations toward the center of the square.  
   
3. Include a written prayer or message [we decided not to confine you to the elusive "enclosed" index card--be creative!] with a small piece of the same fabric attached to it--I will make these into a scrapbook.
   
4. Please have it to us by the before February 14 so that we can get started on sewing the quilt.
   
5. Also, please type a message or prayer into the comment section of this prayer post.  We're trying to keep a good record for our children.  Feel free to post a message even if you aren't able to help with the quilt.  The prayers are what matter.

Kim's Gram is an expert quilter and she has agreed to help us make the quilts--one for each child.  

Just as this blog serves to document the journey to our children and provide a record of our love for them since long before we knew them, we hope these quilts will be a way for our children to wrap themselves up in the prayers and love of so many of our friends and family members who have prayed them home and supported us along the way.  

Here are a couple examples of 100 Wishes Quilts to give you an idea of what we're trying to create:  Example #1, Example #2, or take a peek at our own quilt pages as they come in.

Two Small Stockings

Hanging above our fireplace are some Christmas stockings.  On the left there is one that James has used since his first Christmas, one my mother made for my first Christmas, and one for our guest SuJeong.  On the right there are two small stockings.  They have no name written on them and they are not nearly large enough to hold all the gifts I'm sure we'll want to fill them with some day.  They are there to remind us that there are 2 members of our family who are not home this Christmas.   Of course we wish they were here, but we did not hang the two small stockings in mourning.  We hung them in Hope.  

Each time we look at them we will remember to keep praying until the time is right for our children to come home. 

 

Continuation

Got a letter in the mail today from USCIS.

Nope.  It's not the one we've been waiting for.  It's a paper copy of the email we got last Saturday requesting more information.  Bummer.  But not really, because in the time it took a letter to get here from Missouri, we got the whole thing taken care of.  I received a notarized hard copy of the addendum in the mail yesterday, so it shouldn't be too much longer before it arrives in MO.  I called to check up today and got our case worker Tia (not Anita any more) just before she stepped out for the day.  She recognized my name and told me that we should be all set to be approved by the time the addendum arrives--unless there's "a little something" that she needs changed by the social worker.  

Anyway, the point of this post is to document an answered prayer.  I pray frequently something that my dear friend Michelle has prayed for us:  that we will find favor with the people on whose desk our papers land and that those workers would be fresh and positive and eager to process cases quickly.  

Tia told me today that she wants to be efficient so that she can get us approved as quickly as possible and that "this work is really fulfilling."  I told her that that has always been our prayer for those who work on behalf of our family.  It may seem very small, but it is as clear as could be that this is an answer to prayer.  If God will answer this very specific prayer so readily, then how many other prayers are being answered outside of our field of view?  Surely He is faithful to protect our children, provide them with loving caretakers, use those caretakers to whisper words of Truth from God's Word to them, ensure them that they have a family waiting for them, and prepare them for a new life with us.

Praise God for the millions of ways He is at work, and for the small glimpses of His Faithfulness that He gives us when we need them!

Adoption Grants

One of the ways I've been whittling away at the big wait is by hunting down and applying for adoption grants. There are lots of lists of where to apply for grants on the internet, but most have seemed outdated or too broad (with lots that didn't apply to our situation). I don't know how many people other than our kids, our friends and our family will ever look at this blog, but I want to list the organizations I've found that give grants to people in situations similar to ours.

Show Hope

Need a completed homestudy. No deadlines.

Help Us Adopt

Must have completed homestudyApplications due April 17 and October 16.

God's Grace Adoption Ministry

4 reference letters required. $10 application fee.

Gift of Adoption Fund

$40 application fee. A fairly extensive application.

National Adoption Foundation

Quick and easy online application. Donation required.

A Child Waits Foundation

Extensive financial information required.

Sea of Faces

Must have a child's referral. Applications due on the last day of each quarter.

LifeSong for Orphans

Matching grants to help families raise support with family and friends.


--Links current as of June 2011

Feels like a Miracle

Well, it feels like I've been on the phone all day long, but I think our USCIS crisis is averted.  The agency sent us a description of the Brazil-specific requirements and the social worker sent us an addendum answering all the "deficiencies" USCIS pointed out. 

I even got an email from USCIS:

if all areas are covered in the addendum [and we think they are] this would make the case Hague compliant according to the regulations and would be approvable.

What I think that means is that we're all set, and they should approve us very soon!  This feels monumental, but I've decided that nothing else in this process will be monumental until we get on an airplane to Brazil.  I can't let my heart get all tangled up in disappointments about paperwork.  It's a distraction.  We’ll celebrate our milestones, but no more counting down days to something that isn’t meeting our kids.  Too much heartbreak.

 

Deficiencies

Got an email from USCIS today: 

I have reviewed your case and below are the home study deficiencies, which will need to be addressed in the addendum home study. 

We'll just have to get on that, now won't we?  Here's the rest of it: 

History of Abuse or Violence as an Offender:  In reviewing your home study, we have identified that it does not include evidence that the home study preparerasked the applicant, spouse, and any additional adult household member whether they have a history of the following:  substance abuse, sexual abuse, child abuse, or family violence, whether it be in the US or abroad even if such history did not result in arrest or conviction. This information must be documented in the home study.   In addition, please notate the applicant’s and/or any household member’s responses to the direct questions.  Please note that a single offense may constitute a history. If there is a history, the home study should also include the following information:

1. The dates of each arrest or conviction or history of substance abuse, sexual abuse or child abuse, and/or family violence; or,

2.  If not resulting in an arrest, the date or time period (if occurring over an extended period of time) of each occurrence and

3.  Details including any mitigating circumstances about each incident.

Each statement must be signed, under penalty of perjury, by the person to whom the incident relates.

 

Criminal History:  In reviewing your home study, we have identified that it does not include evidence that the home study preparer has inquired about any criminal history of the applicant, spouse, and adult household members.  Any criminal history must be detailed in the home study. If criminal history does not exist, this should be noted in the home study as well.

 

Country Specific Requirements: In reviewing your home study, we have identified that it does not include a statement of the facts relevant to the applicant’s eligibility for adoption in the indicated Convention country, in light of the specific requirements of that country. Please include this in your home study.

 

I hope this information helps. Once the revisions are complete please forward an electronic version to me for preview before sending the original out to the address below:

 

Department of Homeland Security

Oh, it helps.  Thanks Homeland Security.  

Really, since the last sad post, I've been encouraged by so many faithful friends, and am not feeling half as desperate as I was when I wrote it.  Sure, this is discouraging, but I've decided to go back to not waiting... just spending time preparing.  Counting down to anything builds up expectations that can't give us security the way continuing to Hope in the Lord does.  We're praying that this addendum can get written and submitted QUICKLY nonetheless.  I've asked the social worker if she can meet with us Monday.  Should be a quick interview seeing as the answers to all the above questions are straightforward and simple.

One other encouraging note--the email was sent at 1pm on Saturday.  They're working overtime!  That is good news.

PRAYER REQUEST

Please pray for Anita M. and her two trainees who are currently (right now) looking at our file at USCIS.  100 days have gone by since USCIS entered our paperwork into their system--107 since it arrived at their office--and when I called today to check up on things, Anita, the officer assigned to our case, opened our file for the first time.  She was sweet and polite and very candid with me; she gave me 10 minutes of her time on the phone and answered several questions.  She also volunteered the information that she is training two "mentees" who will be learning how to evaluate cases by evaluating our case.  Trainees!  She asked me to give her another week and a half to finish evaluating our case.  

She glanced at our file while we were on the phone and noticed something that might turn out to be a problem with our homestudy and she has promised to call me on my cell phone by tomorrow to let me know if we will have to have our social worker do another home visit and amend our homestudy again.  Everything I've read says that we should not have to do that, but she seemed iffy about it.  So, she'll tell me tomorrow if I have to endure more interactions with our social worker.

I can be honest in this blog, right?  This is the very first moment that I have felt the impatience, frustration, exasperation and exhaustion that so many adoptive families have told me were recurring themes of their adoption process.  It has been just about two and a half years since we started this process by choosing an adoption agency, and something about my conversation with Anita M. today walloped my spirit somethin' fierce.  I'm trying not to wallow in self-pity here, but the truth is that if it really takes her another week and a half to finish reviewing our case--even if it's approved after that--we probably won't get the official letter until the week before Christmas, leaving it nearly impossible to notarize, certify and legalize it before the first of the year.  Meanwhile, another Christmas goes by during which our children do not know that they have parents waiting for them with all their hearts.

There have been headaches, time crunches, and days during which I felt like a chicken running around with its head cut off, but there have been few tears shed about this process so far--it's a process--anyone can wait one more day, right?  Well, at the moment I can't muster up any hopeful sayings to re-inflate my sagging heart.  

So, pray.  Please pray as you read this that Anita M. and her trainees will catch the vision that their work is worth far more than paper-pushing.  Pray that they are motivated by the true fact that in their hands they hold the hopes and dreams and futures of children and families.  Pray that the true gravity of what they do each day will motivate them to work quickly and with purpose for all the families whose lives sit in manila folders on their desks.  And pray that after reading our papers carefully, they will be able to confidently approve our file.

I haven't forgotten the purpose of this blog.  I am writing even these tearful words and pleas for prayers for them.  They need to know that our hearts break each day we're not with them and that every delay feels like an eternity to us and that our family is not complete until they are in it.  I think it's good that they see the hurt along with the hope.

Names

I like Brazilian names.  Almost every one I hear sounds sweet and beautiful in my ear looks like candy to my eye.  As so many of my friends are getting ready to have babies in the next few months, names are on my mind.  It's the question everyone asks--do you have a name picked out?  We continue to wonder what our children's names are.  

When the mind starts wandering into prayerful daydreams of our children and what they do each day as we wait so far from them, it's easy to wonder what their friends call out to them during games of soccer or tag.  It's easy to wonder how it will feel to whisper their names as we tuck them into bed at night or how it will feel to see their faces and read their names for the first time.  

I love to read this list and feel like I know their names.  They just sound so melodic to me.

Girls’ Names

Adriana	Jovita	Elsa	Quixada
Agacia	Juana	Elvera	Raquel
Aidia	Juanetta	Elvira	Renata
Aislara	Juanisha	Elvita	Rica
Alameda	Juanita	Elzineia	Ricarda
Alandra	Julia	Ema	Rocio
Alanza	Kaba	Emesta	Roderiga
Alazne	Kachiri	Emilia	Roldana
Aldonza	Kaiala	Engracia	Romana
Alegria	Katryny	Enrica	Rufina
Alejandra	Kay	Enriqua	Sanderlei
Alejandrina	Laura	Erendira	Selena
Aliane	Lia	Fabiana	Senalda
Ana	Ligia	Faqueza	Senna
Andira	Linez	Fe	Senobia
Aparecida	Luciana	Felepita	Senona
Arika	Lucina	Felicita	Serafina
Aurinha	Ludimilia	Fernanda	Serena
Beatrisa	Luisa	Flavia	Sevilla
Beatriz	Marcela	Genoveva	Shoshana
Belen	Marguarita	Gerarda	Sibelia
Belinda	Mariana	Ginessa	Sierra
Benita	Mirelli	Giselli	Silvia
Bernicia	Monique	Gitana	Simona
Bethania	Monize	Gloria	Sintia
Blanca	Nade	Gracia	Socorro
Carolina	Nalda	Graciana	Solana
Cassia	Nana	Graciela	Soledad
Celia	Narcisa	Gregoria	Soledada
Celina	Natalia	Guillermina	Stefania
Claudenize	Natividad	Iara	Suelita
Claudia	Nelia	Idoia	Susana
Cristiana	Nelida	Idolina	Teresa
Damita	Nerea	Idonia	Teresita
Dani	Neta	Iemanja	Trella
Deiene	Neva	Ignacia	Ula
Deina	Nevada	Igone	Ursulina
Delcine	Nicanora	Iracema	Valencia
Delmara	Nicolasa	Irasema	Verdad
Denisa	Odete	Iris	Veta
Desideria	Orquidia	Isadora	Vicenta
Dionisa	Paciencia	Isaurides	Viviane
Dita	Palmira	Jacarei	Xalbadora
Dolores	Paloma	Janaina	Xalvadora
Dolorita	Pascuala	Jasone	Xandra
Domenica	Pastora	Javiera	Xaviera
Dominga	Patricia	Jimena	Xevera
Dona	Paula	Jisa	Xeveria
Dorbeta	Pauleta	Joana	Xhana
Dorotea	Pia	Joaquina	Yanamarie
Drina	Piedad	Jordana	Yesenia
Duena	Pilar	Jorgelina	Yoana
Dulce	Placida	Josefa	Yolanda
Dulcina	Priscila	Josefina	Zaina
Edeli	Pura	Josilene	Zamora
Eliana	Pureza	Josune	Zandra
Elena	Purisima	Jovana	Zanetta
Elina	Quela	Jovena	Zanita
Elisa	Querida	Jovina	Zelia
Eloisa	Quinta

Boys’ Names

Adhmar	Jose	Felix	Reymundo
Adilson	Keris	Ferdinando	Reynaldo
Adolfo	Laurencio	Fermin	Ricardo
Adriano	Leandro	Fernando	Riel
Agustin	Leon	Fido	Rio
Alano	Leonardo	Filipo	Romano
Alanzo	Leonel	Flavio	Ronaldo
Alarico	Leonides	Florentino	Rosario
Alberto	Leopoldo	Florinio	Ruben
Alejandro	Lisandro	Fonzo	Rudi
Alexildo	Lonzo	Francisco	Rudolfo
Alfonso	Lorenzo	Franco	Rudy
Alonzo	Lucas	Gilberto	Rufio
Aluino	Luciano	Gustavo	Sancho
Alvar	Lucero	Galtero	Santiago
Alvaro	Luciano	Gaspar	Santos
Alverio	Lucio	German	Saturnin
Amadeo	Luis	Geronimo	Saul
Amado	Mapi	Gervasio	Sebastiano
Arlindo	Marcio	Gervaso	Segundo
Bartoli	Marcos	Gil	Selmo
Bartolo	Matheus	Gilberto	Sencio
Bartolome	Mauro	Gregorio	Senon
Basilio	Mayara	Gualterio	Serafin
Bastian	Miguel	Guido	Sevastian
Blas	Natalio	Halturen	Silvanio
Bruno	Natanael	Hamilton	Silvano
Caio	Nataniel	Heribert	Silvio
Cassiano	Nemesio	Heriberto	Siro
Cedro	Nestor	Hernan	Teodoro
Cenon	Nestorio	Hernandez	Teyo
Cesar	Nicanor	Hernando	Thiago
Cesario	Nicolas	Hilario	Thyrso
Cesaro	Niguel	Hildson	Timo
Chan	Noe	Homero	Timoteo
Charro	Norberto	Honorato	Tito
Che	Normando	Horado	Tobias
Chemo	Octavio	Huberto	Toli
Chico	Oduvaldo	Hugo	Tomas
Ciceron	Oliverio	Humberto	Tonio
Cidro	Oranjinho	Iago	Toro
Cirilo	Orlan	Ignacio	Turi
Danilo	Pascual	Ignado	Ulises
Denilson	Patricio	Ignazio	Urbano
Diego	Patrico	Ilhem	Valentin
Dinho	Paulino	Inocencio	Vicente
Dino	Paulo	Jabuti	Victor
Djavan	Pedro	Jacobo	Victoriano
Domenico	Placido	Jago	Victorino
Domingo	Platon	Jaime	Victorio
Donato	Ponce	Jair	Uluiru
Donzel	Porfirio	Jairo	Vitor
Duardo	Porfiro	Javier	Wanadi
Duarte	Reinaldo	Javiero	Wanderlino
Edson	Rogerio	Jax	Xalbador
Edvaldo	Ramon	Jeremias	Xalvador
Eduardo	Ramone	Jerico	Xavier
Efrain	Raoul	Jeronimo	Ximenes
Fausto	Raul	Joao	Yago
Federico	Renaldo	Joaquin	Yoaquin
Feliciano	Renato	Jonas	Yulius
Felipe	Rey	Jorge	Zacarias
			Zenob

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The latest in waiting

Waiting is all the rage.  All the cool kids are doing it.  You should give it a try.  

While I was waiting today, since I didn't have anything of note in my mailbox (except a birthday card for my darling husband!) I decided to call the USCIS Hague Adoption helpline to find out what's the latest on our nearly 100-day application process.  Here's the news:

*Our case has been assigned to an adjudication officer.

*The sweet woman who answered the phone asked me, "Would you like to speak with the officer assigned to your case?"   "Um, yeah!" quoth I, just as I did when James asked me to marry him--as if there was any other option in my mind!

*I got her name and left her a voicemail.  Let's see if she calls back!  

And now I'm waiting again.  Seriously, it's an up and coming fad.  You really should jump on the bandwagon before it fills up.  :o)